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Just felt like writing. I don't have anything going on, but sometimes I start to write and thoughts I never knew I had start flowing out. Maybe they're thoughts I never did have...just conceived and born upon whim. (regarding last post.)

It's amazing, the things you gain by watching dramas. I mention this because of one thing I thought was worth noting from a drama...hahaha. You can contain the whole sky in those three wee letters: s, k, y. Or ㅎㅏㄴㅡㄹ. Or whatever other language. You know and understand the fluidity and liquidity of Hydrogen Dioxide by its more identifiable string of w, a, t, e, r.

I'm just admiring the power of language and words and communication. It's something I've wanted to write about but forgot to. Anyway, this ain't enough but it's already too late for me to think even more deeply into and I'm pretty tired so I'll maybe be back to do this justice. Somehow.

balderdash

Sometimes without reason I just want to write even though there is nothing in particular to write about I just have this weird urge to write write write as if something mattered though there is nothing in particular that really does matter As I write this I am stalling a lot because even this topic about being topic less is pretty hard to write about How much harder it is to write without having a topic

Sometimes without reason I just want to let go even though there is nothing in particular to let go of There is nothing no one I am holding on to at the moment but why do I feel the need to let go I wish I were more certain of myself and more confident in myself Maybe it is because I do not trust in myself that I am trying to let go Since I can not trust in myself to let go maybe letting go first will allow me to trust in myself What am I so fearful of What if life were like this no periods commas punctuation marks just letting go letting on Should going with the flow be this un flowy and rigid I guess in life there is no such thing as a smooth ride Life is always going to have its fair actually unfair share of bumps and storms and mountains and bullies

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mmhm. Without its punctuations, life'll definitely be nonsensicality at its worst.

nearly bawled.

I've been wondering what good our learning would be in Heaven
We're all going to be worshiping God
So what good would it do me
to learn all of this and not need it in the end?
Why need all these people
when we won't fight or hate anymore?
Why love everyone else
when I only want to
need to
love only God?

Then I realized once again
what the center of all this had been
who the center of all this had been
I couldn't answer my own question
because I had been questing on the wrong path
My question had been wrong from the start
The question shouldn't have been
What would I get out of all of this?
but

What would God get out of all of this?

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thankyouLord.