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eeep!

Just felt like writing. I don't have anything going on, but sometimes I start to write and thoughts I never knew I had start flowing out. Maybe they're thoughts I never did have...just conceived and born upon whim. (regarding last post.)

It's amazing, the things you gain by watching dramas. I mention this because of one thing I thought was worth noting from a drama...hahaha. You can contain the whole sky in those three wee letters: s, k, y. Or ㅎㅏㄴㅡㄹ. Or whatever other language. You know and understand the fluidity and liquidity of Hydrogen Dioxide by its more identifiable string of w, a, t, e, r.

I'm just admiring the power of language and words and communication. It's something I've wanted to write about but forgot to. Anyway, this ain't enough but it's already too late for me to think even more deeply into and I'm pretty tired so I'll maybe be back to do this justice. Somehow.

balderdash

Sometimes without reason I just want to write even though there is nothing in particular to write about I just have this weird urge to write write write as if something mattered though there is nothing in particular that really does matter As I write this I am stalling a lot because even this topic about being topic less is pretty hard to write about How much harder it is to write without having a topic

Sometimes without reason I just want to let go even though there is nothing in particular to let go of There is nothing no one I am holding on to at the moment but why do I feel the need to let go I wish I were more certain of myself and more confident in myself Maybe it is because I do not trust in myself that I am trying to let go Since I can not trust in myself to let go maybe letting go first will allow me to trust in myself What am I so fearful of What if life were like this no periods commas punctuation marks just letting go letting on Should going with the flow be this un flowy and rigid I guess in life there is no such thing as a smooth ride Life is always going to have its fair actually unfair share of bumps and storms and mountains and bullies

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mmhm. Without its punctuations, life'll definitely be nonsensicality at its worst.

nearly bawled.

I've been wondering what good our learning would be in Heaven
We're all going to be worshiping God
So what good would it do me
to learn all of this and not need it in the end?
Why need all these people
when we won't fight or hate anymore?
Why love everyone else
when I only want to
need to
love only God?

Then I realized once again
what the center of all this had been
who the center of all this had been
I couldn't answer my own question
because I had been questing on the wrong path
My question had been wrong from the start
The question shouldn't have been
What would I get out of all of this?
but

What would God get out of all of this?

______
thankyouLord.

an observation

or maybe even, I daresay, a theory.

About: the liberal-erizing tendencies of a newer generation.
Bahaha. Does that even make sense?! I was just trying to sound smart. Smart-ish, at least. Ahaha anywayyyy.

(Note: this is an observation, meaning "generally speaking".) Teenagers tend to rebel. They have a stage in which they go against the desires of their authorities in order to be cool and fit in the mold, amongst a slew of other reasons. Therefore, they go against, or at least try to go against, traditional ways and customs and beliefs. In doing so, they become more accepting of the things which go against tradition. In this way, as more generations come, the world and its standards become more liberal.

I don't know if 'liberal' is the right word here, but I guess as of now, this will do.

Short.

진짜진짜완전 궁금

When, God!? When did you start to create everything?!?! The angels, Heaven........Was Heaven just there already, since you were, since wherever you are = Heaven (right??)? AHHH this is driving me crazy. I wish the Bible told us more about before the creation of the world....


Random rant of the day.

hum .

"Only one life, twill soon be past. Only what's done for Christ will last." (poem)

I duno,

it's somehow so much more fulfilling
when you do something meant to be for yourself,
not for yourself,
but for someone else

mark twain.

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

i love it

when bouts of
uncertainty and insecurity

turn into fountains of
encouragement and reassurance

my brain hurts / (too many thinks)

Can one view be true? The absolute truth? Course not, right? But I think someone's view can be truer than another's. The only absolutely true view is God's. Does God have views? Yes; that's how we have the 10 Commandments, the Bible. I have to stop thinking only about what I think and really analyze and try to become a better person. Don't ever be satisfied with where you are now. Don't give up. We have to try and align our views with God's (obeying) / try to align our will with His will . . . The more your views are/will is aligned with God's, the more truer they are...

We'll never be perfect in this lifetime. We can never stand on the same level with God. But He wants us to become more and more like Him.

I think this is one way how. . .
_________________________on a different note . . . . . . . . .

God created everything. He created everything in order to be glorified. Therefore, everything--the trees, sky, stars, animals, humans--is purposed to glorify Him. Then sin entered the world. Now, God isn't everyone's God. But because we were created to worship, to glorify, we need God. But along the process we substitute(d) Him for idols. Whatever these idols are, though, they can never replace God in the sense that they can never provide the completeness and contentness we have when God is our God. They never can satisfy. But being people, we always want and try to satisfy our cravings. So we go back to these idols again and again in hopes of reaching true satisfaction.


This week was full of thoughts and thinking and more thinking.

reflecting

hum.

autumn

is upon us!



Ah...my 21st autumn. (Actually, it would be my 22nd...)
I LOVE Autumn.
The quiet chill, shy of the eventual nip come winter.
I am oddly starting to like this cold.


Welcome, autumn! ♥

words of wisdom. (attempt)

Approach everyone without any presumption and without the sole basis of personal consumption.


Approach people to learn. Not only about them, but about yourself. Yes, they will do things that please you, peeve you, pain you, perplex you. But when you approach someone with some kind of a presumption, they will remain only that---your presumption (whatever it may be). They'll have no room to grow, and likewise, you'll have no room to grow as well. Anywhere, with anyone.

So please. Do yourself a favor and grow.

:>

자연

자연을 볼때
경탄할 수 밖에 없다...

it's amazing how it's so harmonious,
and in the midst of cacophony, still harmonious.

quote.

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me."
-erma bombeck

Love is... {사랑은...}

Let us be patient, let us be kind. Let us not envy, let us not boast, let us not be proud. Let us not be rude, let us not be self-seeking, let us not be easily angered, nor keep record of wrongs. Let us not delight in evil but let us rejoice with the truth.

(but this is not biconditional)

a few perky quirks

crows, snails.

bridges. sky. stars.

eyebrows.

wit.

flying!

philippians 4:13

I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Super discouraged, burdened, dispirited, despondent...
but against all hope
I am encouraged.

Progress . ?

Hm.
We tend to think that we know it all.
But as we grow, so does our realization that we don't. We don't know it all.....

Even with fair warnings here and precautions there, I don't know why but we just have to really realize and learn for ourselves.
I think maybe cus in the process, it's all the more real to us and bam!, we realize.

Hm.
This is not pointing to anything in particular... just a general perspective?

Anyway.
In the process, we make progress.

?

Don't worry if you don't get me
cus I don't get me either -___-;

"Learn to L♡VE"

{Living Life: quote from The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren}


❝Life is all about love.
      Because God is love, the most important lesson He wants you to learn on earth is how to love. It is in loving that we are most like Him, so love is the foundation of every command he has given us: "The whole Law can be summed up in this one command: 'Love others as you love yourself.'"
      Learning to love unselfishly is not an easy task. It runs counter to our self-centered nature. That's why we're given a lifetime to learn it...
      Why does God insist that we give special love and attention to other believers? Why do they get priority in loving? Because God wants his family to be known for its love more than anything else. Jesus said our love for each other--not our doctrinal beliefs--is our greatest witness to the world. He said, "Your strong love for each other will prove to the world that you are my disciples."
      In heaven we will enjoy God's family forever, but first we have some tough work to do here on earth to prepare ourselves for an eternity of loving. God trains us by giving us "family responsibilities," and the foremost of these is to practice loving each other.
      God wants you to be in regular, close fellowship with other believers so you can develop the skill of loving. Love cannot be learned in isolation. You have to be around people--irritating, imperfect, frustrating people....❞

When I

start feeling stressed,

I think of rapture.

Regarding: Unity

(from Living Life)

❝A Common Denominator {John 17:20-24}

As Jesus was about to complete the work He was sent to do, He prays for the future church for which He was going to die a sinner's death on a cross. This prayer would cover future generations of believers. He prays for the unity of the church--to be unified as a powerful witness to reveal the reality of God's love. This unity is not based on our background, geographical location, or even theological beliefs. The unity of the church would be based on the same unity shared by the Father and Son: "That all of them may be one, Father, just as You are in Me, and I am in You." Through this expression of love for one another, the world would come to believe and know God. In other words, our greatest apologetic (defense for God) is not in our ability to argue, but in our ability to show the unity.

Get in Tune {John 17:24-26}

When I used to play the violin in the concert orchestra, I remember how before a performance started, the first chair violinist would play a single A string, and all the other instruments would tune themselves to that single pitch. The kind of unity Jesus prays for cannot be accomplished unless the believers are in one accord, attuned to the Father. This unity is supernatural and is fundamentally the same unity that exists between the Father and Son. Disunity happens when we are out of tune with the Father. As we grow to know the Father (v.26), our love for Him will grow. You and I have a responsibility to protect the unity of the church. That begins with preventing gossip or negativity of any kind, especially against the leadership. You can contribute to unity by praying for others, building each other up, serving in humility, giving your time and money, worshiping together, and refusing to get sidetracked arguing over divisive matters. ❞

What if

the world was upside-down? Would the sky be the sea, and the sea the sky? The trees might be the clouds, and the clouds the trees. It would rain petals and leaves, and it would also rain upside-down. Then we'd need upside-down umbrellas. We'd also have flying cars, technically. O, these technicalities. We'd be living outside-in, not inside-out. We'd need to put spf 1000 sunscreen, especially on our feet, during the day, and we'd trail the stars by night. Gravity would work in weird ways.

I think a lot on the bus.



Goodnight.
...goodmorn? :}

When

life gives you lemons, make lemonade.

When life gives you waves, go surfing.

new

public blog. hehe.